So I was going to do about the budget and all the cuts and my thoughts on them. However, that would just make me more angry than usual (if that were possible) and also I've not enjoyed the past few days because of various news and experiences. But hey! Fuck the feeling of melancholy though! I'm going to be positive! I'm going to talk about something in my life but it's something that can apply to everyone.
I've learnt that things don't always go according to plan. This may seem obvious, but it's a pretty good reason why I've never subscribed to a traditional view of God. If he has a plan, then why is life so messed up sometime? When my Uncle got cancer or when someone is put into a coma...don't tell me it was part of anyone's plan you fuck. *Breathe*. You get the idea. Life is random, and I don't think that needs to be a bad thing. I think we need to do what we can with what we have!
What has bought this sudden love for the unplanned on? A change in my plans actually. I didn't know what to do with myself after A-Levels. I'm working and I do voluntary work and I'm directing a play, but that's my immediate future. I want to work towards a brighter day, where I have a family and a good job I enjoy. I don't want lots of money, I just want to be remembered as funny, intelligent and kind. Luckily I'm all three ;) I used to want to live in America...not any more! I think it's a great country with lovely people but some of its interior policies and certain ways of life are just wrong. Obama has the right idea, but it's too impractical right now!
What I want is to take a risk. I want to live in the States for an indefinite period. I am going to America for a programme called Camp America. I'll pick up some fantastic skills there. I also get travel time which I'll use to make contacts. I'll return, save some money then get a one-way ticket to live in America for an indefinite period and just explore the places and see the people. As far I understand it, I believe that I can get a visa if I get a job (or apply for one.) I'm hoping the skills I get this year will help me when I arrive. Sell phones, write for a local paper or help direct a school play! Who knows? The world is my oyster and I plan to take each and every pearl. That analogy doesn't really work, but it sounded cool. I'll use the travel time I get with Camp America to hit the north (where most of my friends are) and then when I return...America watch out! I'll travel all round the different places, some unknown, some famous for their sites. I want to just see where the road and jobs take me...hell, one minute I'll be working for Mcdonalds, the next I could be writing an article about why Obama is great, and America needs to wake up! I'll meet new people, and join rallies or arrange town fairs. I'll be a man who comes and goes...but while he was there it was memorable! I'll definitely write about my experiences in excruciating detail!
When I've finished, whenever that may be, I'll return...do a degree and teach here, in a country with a bloody National Health Service and no gun law! Sure, England's not all great, but for the most part I'm proud to be British. We have a superior accent, sense of humour and we aren't as extreme when it comes to invading countries...just ;)
Why am I telling you this? I know I said blogs weren't going to be about me, but I did a Rooney. I said one thing and did something else ;) I also say fuck the tradition! Gordon Ramsay (not the best person to quote, but hey) said that "Young teens should stop being so traditional, step outside their comfort zone and live their lives while they can." When have I been one for conformity? I want to experience the unknown now...because its thrilling, it's outside of my comfort zone...and hey, I don't think I can lose. I'll have a fantastic time, I've got the personality to make it very far. I'm approaching this in the best frame of mind!
I can then get my degree when I return...yes I'll join you sheep in doing the norm...so what if I go to Uni slightly late? I won't be like you, who thinks this is the way life's supposed to be...and being surprised when you don't know where to go next. Do what you can...but what you want (within reason!) I'm going to enjoy this part of my life and when I'm ready, be a damn good teacher and enjoy that too. I'll be arrogant here, living life like I plan to looks far better than people who haven't really experienced life. Uni is just one more institution. Live a little more...free, outside of the secure. Hell, I'm starting to sound like a god damn hippie, so I'll shut up. I'll leave you with a song. But as a last point, life is about the unknown and nobody knows how my plan will work out (the title being a song by They Might be Giants, (a band you definitely should check out) but it's better than your safety shit!
I love the Unknown
Now go away.
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